Disneyland

So last weekend was Arman's 1ST visit to Disneyland! He's 31 years old, and has never been. So I decided to remedy this situation. And took him...without the kids. Yes I know horrible of me. But my reasoning is this...Hayden is too little for a lot of things, plus not to sound horrible...he gets too scared of things. So next year will be his year. We had a blast...totally acting like kids riding all the rides and meeting all the characters. It was so much fun to just watch him enjoy and let go of the stress of things that have been coming up lately. I wish for more times like this...

3 Months

I can't believe Drake is 3 months old already. It's amazing the little personality he has already. He loves his brother. Lights up when he sees one of his Grandmas. And we believe he's got a future in singing. He especially likes singing with Arman's mom! lol.




Just love his smile!!!

Working Mom

WOW, I guess I didn't realize how much I was going to dislike coming back to work! Hayden was 5 months old when I finally ventured back to work. And he was at home with my sister, so I had the most time possible with him. I don't know why I feel like I'm missing more this time around. Drake will be 3 months old on the 11th, and I feel like I'm missing so much. He seems to change before my eyes. I have 2 and a half hours after work, before I go to bed to take care of everything that needs to be handled, as in feedings, dinner, bathing, cuddling, playing and then finally getting everyone off to night night land. I'm afraid Hayden is being jipped cause I'm spread so thin. I know he acts out in regards to this. So I try as best I can to just slow down and be with him. And at the same time, relieve my mother in law, because I know she's had a very long day with both kids.
Working mothers around the country feel my pain with this, I know. I wish we were in the days still that it was affordable and comfortable to live with one income. I miss my family. I miss seeing my husband, as we have opposite shifts. Mondays are the worst...after having a few days of all family, having to switch back to the work mode.
I swear...I need to hit Megabucks. LOL. Maybe I should gamble first...lol.

Let's See...

What a world, where you can stay up to date in friends and families lives just by logging on to their blog. lol. Having kids makes me realize that updates happen extremely often. Every new word, first smile, first steps and so on...all those little things that do mean alot to me, and I know mean alot to the people close to me. So here I am...taking a page out of the Holloway book. Gotta respect their advice...anyone who can do it with 5 kids is impressive. LOL. :-)

So where to start...

I've realized that the hardest part of my day is leaving the house in the morning. Usually by the time I'm walking out the door Drake is awake and so happy. Hearing him talking and practically singing with Raya, just makes me want to stay home so I can cuddle him. I can't believe how much he is changing, and he's not even 3 months old yet. And I feel like I'm missing so much.

There's nothing better though, then coming home and having your kids just light up. Hayden wraps himself around my legs and tells me how happy he is I'm home. And I still think...WOW he's only 3, when half the time he seems so much older then that. Of course when I pick him up and try to devour him with kisses, he tells me I'm crazy. lol. Great...my toddler thinks I'm nuts.

When I finally pry Drake out of Raya's hands, lol, he will focus on me and give me his big gummy smile. And when I click my tongue at him he laughs and then tries to do it himself. I can just sit with him and laugh cause he smiles so freely now, at anyone that talks to him. Just a few more days and he'll officially be 3 months old. Crazy how fast it is going already.

As crazy as it is, working and being a mom. I wouldn't change anything. Not one thing. Arman and I will still do the travelling we want while the kids are small. And when they grow, we will take them with us, so they experience the world from different vantage points. The love in my heart for them is so overwhelming most of the time. My men are my life...and I love it! Even if they make me want to pull my hair out half the time! LOL